Don't look back in anger

I am currently spending most of my time in my mum’s little house on the country side outside of Berlin. Sometimes I take the bike out to buy some butter, or go and scan something in the village copy shop. The highlights of my daily life are the trips to Berlin, where I mostly go to look at apartments.

What I spend my time on is the great activity of applying for jobs. I feared just to get started not knowing what even to put on my CV, or what to look for. I had to do it anyway, there was no way to procrastinate, as the internet is so slow that youtube is no fun, and yea, besides going to the bakery there is not much more to do here.

I made a CV that I liked and started looking for jobs. I started to stumble upon jobs and internships I really would like to do, so I started applying with passion. I just got started, so frustration is not too big, yet (not too many rejections).

I realized something today: What would I have done one year ago? Would I have had the same confidence to go job hunting? Would I have been able to capture my experience and put them on paper? I started to see how much I have developed the last year, how each success and each failure made me stronger and more capable for the situation I am in now.

So, as a side effect I miss my team. You can’t imagine how much we had to work and how much sweat and tears we invested into our projects – but you can also not imagine how much fun we had together and how close we knew each other by the end of the year. I watched the good bye video this morning, and I smiled. It’ll all go the way it’s supposed to go. Man! I have just returned from India where I visited some of my dearest friends. Nothing can go wrong.